The Urn of Ashes
The sands of the Kihim beach
were warm as Rajan sat with his legs stretched on the shore looking at the
horizon. He had taken off from Mumbai, last night for the weekend offer of a
quiet tent holiday. He sipped the chilled beer from the can and looked at his
well shaped feet. In another hour, Bela would join him. She was to leave her
office at noon by the luxury bus and arrive at the holiday camp by evening. He
was looking forward to her company. He really needed this break.
Rajan thought of Malini, his
wife and their two lovely daughters. Malini has been a loyal wife and been with
him through all the initial trials and tribulations when he was setting up his
small scale industry in Andheri. She had even pawned her gold to raise some
capital. There was hardly anything that he could find as a shortcoming in her.
She was pretty and had maintained herself even after two difficult childbirths.
She spoke well and was a wonderful homemaker and mother. Had it not been for her, his factory would
not have made profits. Every week, she came to write the accounts and do odd
jobs. Even the workers respected this ‘madam’. The rewards came when, Rajan’s
industry succeeded and he could replace his two-wheeler with a car and his
small flat with a luxury apartment in a central Mumbai complex.
At one of the stag parties
that Rajan attended, he had met Bela. She worked for an event management
company and had come to set up the place at the Marve cottage. Rajan’s eyes
wandered towards her often until it was a stare. Bela could sense the
admiration or lust. She looked at him and smiled. After her work was done, she
drove off with her colleague leaving two attendants behind. She also cleverly
left her business card with Rajan. It stated ‘Bela Guha’ Executive Coordinator.
Bela was an easy catch. Practically, every
Saturday, Rajan picked her up from her office at Andheri and went out. Malini
was sensing something different and had asked why Rajan was not coming home early
on Saturdays and sometimes even on Sundays he was not seen at home. “As I grow
in my profession, I have to float in the social circles, dear. That is how we
build contacts and get more orders,” Rajan had justified his waywardness.
Malini, however, least suspected her husband to have ‘the other woman.’ Rajan
was very careful about his cell phone and deleted all messages from Bela to
ward off suspicion. It was like falling in love again with this
twenty-something beauty. She knew of the shacks rented out near Erangal beach
and they spent a few hours in torrid love sessions almost every weekend.
Rajan was startled when he
saw Bela walk towards him. She always wore trousers and body-hugging tops which
accentuated her curvaceous figure. She sat next to him and was rather quiet. He
put his hand around her waist and kissed the side of her neck. “Rajan,” she
spoke softly, “I’m pregnant with your child and I don’t want to abort it. I
want to marry you,” the words came like a heavy axe. “Are you crazy? You know
I’m a family man and I love my family. Look, look Bela, I had made it clear
right from the start that you were only my weekend fun girl and no emotions
involved in it. You remember?” Rajan almost yelled and pulled her hair back. “I
have no commitments to you, mind you. I’ll give you the compensation and go and
abort that unwanted baby. If you’ve been sleeping with me you could be doing
this with anyone else too!” Rajan was grinding his teeth now. They kept silent
for some time. She was lost in deep thought while Rajan was silently swearing
at himself.
She got up and dusted her
trousers. “I agree, Rajan. I’ll get rid of the baby. I should’ve known better.
I got carried away by your charm. But can you do me one favour. Tomorrow, come
to see my aunt who has been my guardian since I came to this city. I’ll try and
convince her. Please. I won’t trouble you in future. Let’s part as friends.”
They both held hands and walked towards their tent. They forgot about their
supper and spent the rest of the night in love-making.
Next morning, they left in
his car for the city. Bela spoke to her aunt, “ Masi.. I will come home in
about 2 hours. Heh? Ok -the maharaj is there? Tell him to come later when I
reach. I do want to send some money for puja. Okay. See you then.” Bela mumbled
something like she sends money to Kolkatta for annual puja and the person had
come to collect the money. Rajan was not interested.
He first took her to her
aunt’s place. A middle-aged woman sat near the road-facing window. She got up
when she saw the duo. “Come, come Rajan. Bela has told me everything about
you,” she smiled as she uttered the welcome in a sing-song way. “ Rajan sat
awkwardly in a red sofa.
Aunty spoke softly, “Bela
tells me that you don’t want to break your family. But naturally. Ok. Pay her the hospital expenses
and a little more dear as she would have to go on a week’s leave. Done. Happens
sometimes. Bela would get on with her life, I’m certain,” aunty’ s words were reassuring. The lady then laughed so loudly that Rajan
was scared.
A bearded man emerged from
the inner room and folded his hands and turned to aunty. The vermillion mark on
his forehead, the yellow scarf on his shoulder and a crisp dhoti kurta-must be
the maharaj, Rajan guessed. Bela went in and brought out an envelope. After
handing it to the priest, she bent to touch his feet. Then she turned to Rajan
and said, “I told you about this person, remember, when we left Kashid?” Rajan
got up and left soon after the priest had gone.
In the evening, he drove to
Bela’s house and rang the doorbell. “On second thoughts, I’ll marry you. But
our marriage won’t be legal. I’ll settle my family and I’ll move in with you
till we get another house. Don’t abort the baby. We would be man and wife
soon!” Rajan spoke with confidence. Somehow, neither Bela nor her aunt were
surprised at the change of heart. He asked Bela to come with him and they drove
to his house in Worli.
Malini opened the door and
saw the young girl holding Rajan’s hand. In total consternation, she felt that
her innermost fear had come true. Rajan spoke in an authoritarian manner,
“Malini. This is Bela, my love. I value all your love in the past and
acknowledge your sacrifices,” there was no sentiment in his voice. The two
girls clasped the curtain with fear writ large on their faces. Malini tried to
argue but Rajan had made up his mind. “Look I am keeping this flat in your name
and all the savings in your name. I’m not changing the nominees on my insurance
policies either. Don’t dare to go for any legal action. I can be nasty with my
bequests then. Be happy that you have this crores worth of property. I’ll come
once a week to see the girls. Don’t trouble me, mind you. I want to start life afresh
with a lot of love and romance with this beauty here,” Rajan was exploding. He
walked into his room, evidently to pick up a few clothes.
Malini took her dupatta to
her mouth and then to her eyes and spoke between sobs, “There is no use
stopping you when you have made up your mind and there’s no love left for us.
Better you go.” Rajan almost dragged Bela out and drove off. Malini was
inconsolable but she saw her daughters’ scared faces and stopped crying. The
following week, as promised, Rajan had transferred the flat and the bank
accounts in Malini’s name. He left the original policy papers too with her.
Months passed and Malini and
her daughters had come to terms with their broken family. Occasionally, Rajan
encountered his neighbours’ queries and he shamelessly told them that he had found a mistress and was living
happily with her. One day, a worker came to Malini’s house. “Ma’am,” he
faltered as he folded his hands. “Something is wrong with Rajan saa’b. He does
not come to the factory regularly. That woman comes and screams at us for no
obvious reason. They have a son, whom he brings along some time when that witch
hangs out with her kitty party friends.” Sohan hesitated and spoke, “Ma’am there
is no bigger sin than breaking a happy family. The woman would realize that
soon.”
Malini asked, “Is there something you have
come to ask or is it just this bit of disturbing news that you wanted to
convey?”
“No. I don’t want to disturb
you. But what is happening is not good for his health. I just dropped by to
share this with you. I am not here on a gossip trip,” he turned.
Malini softened. “Please
don’t misunderstand. As far as we as a family are concerned, he has cut off all
ties. I am helpless too.” Sohan arose and took out a box of sweets. “I had come
to Worli for my brother-in-law’s wedding. You had paid his ITI fees, remember?”
Sohan smiled and bent down to touch her
feet. Malini was touched by his gesture. “He would come with his bride to take
your blessings after he comes back from a trip to the family shrine,” Sohan
spoke softly and left.
A few weeks later, Malini was
disturbed by a late night call. She saw an unknown number but she answered.
“Ma’am,” she recognized the worker’s voice. “Saab is in hospital. He suffered a
stroke yesterday while in the factory. We admitted him in the hospital. We
informed the other female. But no one has come to see him.” Malini’s heart
sank.
Next morning she dropped the girls to school
and drove off to the private hospital where Rajan was admitted. A couple of
workers were standing out. She went in and found Bela with her toddler sitting
at Rajan’s bedside. He was conscious. Malini inched ahead fearing Bela’s anger.
Rajan smiled feebly. She stood there for a few seconds and said, “If you need
something send for me.” She walked away with tears brimming in her eyes. The
factory accountant walked with her to the parking lot. He shrugged his
shoulders to express despair and waited till she drove away. A few days
later, Rajan was discharged. He was
almost a vegetable, Malini had heard. Bela went to the factory which was not functioning
efficiently now. Half of the workforce had left in good time with their dues.
The others were about to follow.
The accountant came one
evening to see Malini. ‘I don’t have good news for you. Rajan passed away this
morning. Bela had strictly stopped us from informing you. Some nephew of Bela
performed the last rites. It was very painful for a loyal employee like me to
see Rajan’s world disintegrate like this.” Malini sat speechless. Bela did not
want her to take the last ‘darshan’ also. She did not try to contact Bela. What
was the use?
On the tenth day, after the
nephew had performed the rites at the sea shore, Bela came to the factory and
pretended to do some serious work. She asked one of the workers to accompany
her to her house. “ Gangaram, you wait with the child in the house. He knows
you,” she instructed him. “Aunty and I will go to the seaside and immerse
saab’s ashes. It will take an hour, clear?” the worker nodded.
Aunty
had worn a white sari and Bela was in a white salwar kameez. Gangaram held the
child in his hands and walked towards the road-facing window. The two women
waited to cross the road and take a rickshaw from the opposite side. Suddenly,
there was a screech, a honk and the traffic had come to a halt. There was a
stream of blood and the ashes strewn around. Both the women were crushed to
death by a reversing dumper.
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